Essaere - just realized i took this pic like two days ago and just forgot to actually post it WHOOPS Also Read if You would Like to it s kind of a journal entry LOL So basically I cannot catch a break whether it s family health general stress anxiety or just tough situations to be put it always two of these things are happening at once It s almost like I can finally get something resolved at 12PM one night and have a few hours of peace and tranquility wake up the next morning and shit just piles up again Idk maybe i m just walking Bad Luck LOL Regardless It s been tough being almost completely on my own I wasn t raised very well and taught how to be capable to do all of the adulting things that adults need to do So I m still learning all of this whilst ALSO being my Own Boss girlboss moment and it s nice but also AHHHHHHHH most of the time y know what i mean I m also just a lil dumb and rough around the edges That being said shit gets so stressful to me and WILD AHHHH every week I have many people in my life who tell me on a constant basis I do not know someone who cannot catch a break as much as you and I totally agree Side note I m kind of just sitting here doing a little diary entry vent because it feels nice and safe here For the most part I m comfortable with the people that are here on this account and feel comfy sharing things with y all even if it s dumb or silly to vent where people mostly just wanna see da bobs Anyway today was really rough for me I woke up and within THREE hours I had so many things stacked on top of me that I could barely hold myself together I ve got a roommate and for reasons unbeknownst to me I found out I had accidentally signed a longer lease with my current apartment complex than I had thought That s tuff because I assumed I would be ready to leave here in November Found out I had to stay until January Whoopsies Now i ve got a roommate who assumed we would be getting a place soon and not enough room to do my work comfortably not enough space to really even make sets I freaked out for a solid hour then figured might as well continue on with the plan we ll be splitting expenses anyway I ll just work harder Lol so I can afford two places at once AHHHHH Then it was the runaround with the leasing offices of both rentals AHHHHHH As of right now I m not even sure if I ve secured the new place its much cheaper thank GAWD but it s still two rents at once til january CRIES OH and I also had a unrelated bill slapped in my face that was astonishingly large and I was just like AHHHHH Also of course my health is in shambles again What else was there there was more that happened today Actually nvm there were like a billion other things but I won t go into all of it Anyway I get so freaking stressed out SO easily dude And just AHHHH my brain goes into AHHHH panic mode and then i m a crumbling ball of anxiety for the next business day at LEAST As of right now I dont know when that feeling will go away lololol All of this to say It s currently almost 5am and I ve come up with a sort of game plan for september that I m hoping is attainable so I can keep busy and not worry about everything so much and also be able to afford two rent payments til january so I don t have to break any leases Anyway I m hoping to post something veryyyyyy nice for you all tomorrow september 1st and I hope y all love it It s gonna be my first time getting into any kind of cosplay in MONTHS Ok GOODNIGHT So sorry for the horrifically long unintelligible text post TLDR AHHHH i m living in agony If u read this far Thank Uuuu i m mostly just trying to throw this out into the world so I don t have to hold it in so much XOXOXO Ess Read more
