Niniibear - I ve noticed that I often find myself venting on social media While I try to maintain a positive outlook I can t help but share the issues I face If you ve followed me for a while you know that things can escalate quickly on my end It feels like as soon as I resolve one issue another one comes up Life has its ups and downs but lately it feels like I m dealing with something new almost every day and it can be exhausting Yes I ve been taking more days off than usual When life becomes overwhelming it s hard to keep up and I find myself delaying work Even though I know I m doing my best I often feel like I m falling short Since August my mom has undergone four surgeries one of which put her in critical condition during the operation Thankfully we managed to cover the medical bills thanks to your support However just as one problem is resolved new ones seem to emerge I got COVID which knocked me out for two weeks and now I m dealing with breathing issues that leave me fatigued To add to that my best friend is currently in the hospital and another friend needs my support as she has her own struggles Despite this I have conventions planned for this year and next along with collaborations in the works I recently resumed therapy because the weight of everything has become too much to bear and I ve found myself with dark thoughts again Earlier this year as many of you know I tried to kill myself I m starting to feel depressed once more With my ADHD I often feel overwhelmed leading to moments of paralysis where I can t focus or move forward no matter how organized I try to be This Halloween was supposed to be GRAND Until my health started to decline It feels like I am embodied with bad luck I ve decided to prioritize my well-being so I can maintain a positive presence for all of you Reply to this message with so I know you read everythingI hope you don t mind me sharing my thoughts I understand that some of you may prefer not to hear about struggles especially if you re facing your own challenges Please let me know how you feel about this Your support means a lot to meWith this I will be doing temporary changes to focus on myself before I end up doing something dumb Read more
