Kristieconner - I m not sure if I really wanna even take content for a while my self confidence has completely gone to nothing for many reasons Yeah I get compliments here but I never really even feel attractive unless I m working my A off and my patients and families tell me how gorgeous I am when I m sweating crying or simply sitting down charting with bags under my eyes or tears in them My point is I can t shoot content alone much less with others for this reason When I come here I know I can be myself but it s also why I haven t gotten any custom work done for a good while I simply don t wanna see myself or even send it because I m not feeling it I ll continue posting throwbacks and pics videos for you guys but just know this is why I ve been and prob will be distant I just need to work on me and fix a lot about myself Depression and being bipolar fucking sucks but I ve felt this way for a while and just not spoken about it I even had a trip planned to VA to see some really good rope friends but wasn t feeling it for this reason and more and cancelled last minute I know y all are on here and I won t tag you but you know who you are That was shitty of me and I m sorry Truly I hate being this person but I m gonna take a break from modeling and shooting for a while I love you guys SO much More than you ll ever know This isn t me leaving just being real about not being myself
